Saturday, November 30, 2013

Reality Check

Self portrait this morning. It has been interesting recently. I sustained a bite to my finger trying to save my choking dog, Bella. Nearly severed my index finger trying to clear her airway. The biggest concern was infection. With my totally compromised immune system, this bite was life threatening. I have survived with good care and immediate attention and so did my dog.

It did bring my current condition into absolute focus. I am not well. As the ER doc said, "you look better than you do on paper." Fortunately, he had five years doing hand surgery in Boston and was able to stitch everything back together. IV antibiotics and good follow up care has allowed me to keep the finger.

My physical issues have such a direct impact on my mental attitude that it is impossible to separate the two. I am again brought to the awareness that life is a fragile thing. I am grateful for the time I have.

I wish we all could be present for our lives. Watch your thoughts and lead them back to now.

Thursday, November 14, 2013


I had my infusion yesterday morning and the rest of the day was lost to drug stupor. Not all days are spent "floating" but they do give me a benchmark.

I woke up this morning with a vivid memory of standing on the bank of the Mad River at 2 am in the morning and watching an avalanche of ice roar past as the river let go.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Quiet Time

I had some alone time this weekend. It was nice. With only my energy to fill the space, it was beautifully quiet, almost soft. My energy is ebbing so I didn't try to busy myself with chores and just relaxed into it.

I am enjoying a quiet mind these days. My thoughts float by like clouds seen from beneath still water.

Monday, November 4, 2013


The daily observations tend to get lost in memory unless they are captured. Those are the quiet moments of awareness, not spectacular insights perhaps, but they make up the fabric of our lives. I know if my thoughts are sincere that they will resonate with others and join the quiet energy that surrounds us. It is my way of reaching out and connecting again.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Old Hat

There was a gathering of old friends and smiths in Oakland last week. Looking at the pictures I had an ache. It was one of those moments in time when energy converges and something special occurs. I was not there and part of me longed for it. Axe N Sax

There was also a comfort in knowing that the craft is alive and growing with new and exciting talent. This is how I want the world to be. It makes me very happy to witness.